2026 Week 29+30 Summary

• External stress will put stress on relationships that you care about if you don’t acknowledge it
• When people who care about you start to stress you out, take that as a signal that you might have more on your plate than you might be acknowledging
• If somebody tells you that you upset them, you did
  • Just say sorry and deal with it
  • You don’t get points for being right
  • Make the people that you love feel heard
• Realtors will take advantage of your ignorance
  • Choose wisely
• Adding Kimchi or sauerkraut to a meal is essentially free
• Going to the office is actually helpful sometimes
• Consistency with sleep is important ESPECIALLY if you are getting less of it
• Exercise is good
• I missed biking
• I am prone to snacking and it is so hard not to do sometimes
• Short-circuiting anger responses and showing up when people need you feels good
• I didn’t get the job at Trellis…
  • That is fine
  • It came out of nowhere anyway
• I want to build shelving in the basement
• I want to build a workbench
• I SHOULD build a laundry table instead of using a folding table
• I kind of want a garage workbench too
• If anyone ever says the term, “creative deal” to you, they intend to fuck you
  • Not in a fun way
• Taking your kid to the ER is maybe the worst feeling ever
• Framing stress by asking yourself if something is gonna matter in a year is a healthy exercise
• I installed lights in my basement!
• I like how much I am writing
• I like doing these review posts
• Agentic AI is really useful and I hate that it is
  • It is important to me to selfhost it though
  • I still don’t trust these companies…
• Opencode is pretty good for the time being
• In an effort to write more here, I might start writing essays about stuff that interests me
• I want to find a drawing course and start communicating that way again
• I STILL need to build a storage rack for those Greenmade containers
• Learn more about how WebHooks work
• I spend money as a coping mechanism for stress
  • There is privilege oozing from that sentence
  • It stresses me out when I do it…
• DO more instead of BUYING more
• We should take a trip to Gatlinburg
  • It’s fairly close and it seems to be a really nice destination
• I cleaned out the garage and it looks good!
• Write about how apps are just custom web browsers that let companies get away with violating rules that they would otherwise NOT be allowed to do in a normal web browser
  • Apps are just the internet where you agree to let companies do what they want
  • Fuck letting companies do what they want
  • Do everything internet in browser
• Being an adult is stressful
• Making or buying an self-hosted AI machine is SO EXPENSIVE
  • It’s worth it if you’re gonna use it for more than wasting time though
• Communicate with phones less
• I had a psych evaluation
  • results pending
  • It was an interesting process
• I don’t think that I felt very safe as a kid
• I feel like many of my default responses begin with fear
• The Chimp Paradox is a good book
• NURTURE your chimp before you try to manage it
• Shore up means to support something
• I use YouTube as a distraction when I am stressed out
• Being a responsible white person is a full time job
  • Don’t use whiteness irresponsibly
  • It hurts people
• Don’t say yes to everything
• I replay past events in my head A LOT
• Money stresses me out
• I am currently stressed about money
• I am currently stressed about selling my house
• I saw the Odyssey and it was pretty good
  • It had an inordinate amount of white people for a Greek myth
  • Greece is ESSENTIALLY north Africa